overdue update

so i havent written here in a long time and actually i havent written in a few months, its been hard to put the words together to be honest. i really dont know where to start actually. i was able to make it through a second christmas without my family around and that was tough, i didnt lose any weight over christmas but i didnt gain any either. i hit a platue but ive got my butt in gear and im now down 45 pounds from the surgery and a total of 70. ive had to go and buy all new clothes and i mean literally all new clothes because NOTHING fit me. at my heaviest i was in a size 26/28 and today i can buy a size 16. people at both my jobs have nothing a tremendous change and compliment me on it! my confidence is boosted and i have cut my blood pressure medicine in half and im hoping to be completely off of it by the summer. on a deeper note, ive been doing a lot of soul searching within myself and sometimes it get scary. ive realized that as much as i wish my life was well rounded, its not. i am definitely a workaholic and a worry wort. I know i need to improve my life in a few ways. one i definitely need to make more friends, friends that are single woman like me. ive been reading more and i freaking hate to read, always have. however, ive been picking books that can help me deal with the emotional skeletons i have from the very bad relationships ive racked up over the years. ive been seeing someone and thats been a challenge in and among itself, learning to trust myself and others.
i have learned a few things these past months though,...never try to be friends with an ex, becareful whom you trust and sometimes friends arent really friends at all. anyway, thats all i got to say for now....