It’s still so unbelievable to me and every time I think about it takes my breath away. It is hard to imagine that there was a time that those size 28 jeans fit me. I walked around and existed with an extra 130 pounds. I can’t believe how far I’ve come and how much I have evolved. This is literally a dream come true. I always dreamed of being skinny, small or even normal. I don’t think I’ve ever felt normal until now. If you’ve never been extremely overweight I don’t know if you could ever appreciate the small milestones and small things that make me smile in the day to day of the new me. The small things in life have made this journey so memorable. Wearing a seatbelt on the airplane and having extra belt left, even fitting in the seat!!! Walking through a turnstile and not getting stuck because my hips were too big. Crossing my legs like a lady, sitting with my knees to my chest and as weird as its going to sound….but when I look down I don’t see fat anymore I can literally see my crotch area. Being able to call a friend and say hey do you have a shirt or a belt I can borrow! Shopping, I can shop at any store I want choose to. My choices are not limited to Lane Bryant. It’s weird because when I do go shopping I sometimes forget what size I am and will automatically go for the larger size. Then its like wait! No, I am this size now! I was actually shopping at Old Navy last weekend and I bought a size small!! Never in my wildest dreams would I ever have thought I would ever buy a size small! The small things! Being able to sit in a booth and have tons of room between me and the table. The one thing that I’m still not used to is the way men look at me! I still don’t understand why they stare at me! I don’t see what they see….but I am working on that. The confidence that has been bestowed upon me since losing all this weight is breathtaking. Thank God for the small things in life, it makes everything so worthwhile!!!
This has been such a defining experience in my life. It truly has brought the inside out. I did not do this alone nor could I have ever done this alone. So many thanks are in order. First, to my parents for their unwavering support and love and for understanding my need to change my life. To my sister, for coming and taking care of me after surgery and doing the ‘big sister’ things for me. My other family members who at first did not understand why I wanted this but have loved me anyway! To Heather, Tracy and Kristin, your love for me has been nothing but a blessing. You ladies were down for me since day one of this journey and I could not have done this with out your love and faith in me. Curtis, as always you have been a big supporter in all I do and that support has helped me through some tough times and your love for me is always strong. Your cheering me on was something that I depend on!! Johnny, my little bro, I love you to no end and I am so glad you are in my life, thanks for always taking care of me!!!! To Raven and Jessica, for supporting me and caring about me through the tough times. I’ll always love you!!!! I can’t even begin to name all the people I should be naming without forgetting someone. The people I saw everyday at PP, you ladies rock and I had such a great experience working there with you. You ladies were always the first to notice the changes and tell me so! I’ve been so blessed to have known you and shared this experience with you, thank you for seeing me through this experience. To all my Facebook and MySpace friends, I have to give thanks for all the cheering on and support. I thank you for all the comments and love that’s been left on my photos and blogs. Your kind words, thoughts and prayers have kept me focused on the bigger picture. Thank you God for giving me people who have supported me, loved me, guided me, inspired me to become who I have.
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