Solitary

Loneliness is a bitch. You think you doing good until that feeling sets in, the feeling of being alone is gut wrenching when you have time to think about it. I lost my best friend. I lost the person I talked to all the time. Yes, the relationship was not healthy but we did have a lot of good times and laughter and that is what I miss. I know that I have to be strong and not give into temptation because that is what got me into this mess in the first place. In the back of my mind I wonder if maybe I truly need to feel this loneliness and trust that God will take care of me. I've heard so many people say this and that they gave it to God and then afterwards they met their husbands. Maybe thats what I need to do.