A month later

It has been just over four weeks since my surgery and I really do feel great! The first few days after the surgery I was really really sore and honestly, I was regretting the whole damn thing. I wasn't enjoying the fact I couldnt eat, I was actually kinda depressed that I couldnt eat, but somewhere along the line I've ended up not regretting it. Its been a very good decision in my life and I am glad I had it done. As of this morning I have lost 19 pounds and am back to wearing the jeans that I couldn't fit in. There is a whole new aura to me and I thought that I was the only one that could see it, but Heather mentioned something to that effect to me today at dinner. I feel different, I feel satisfied maybe even a bit happy, even though I am scared to death to say that as I might jinx myself. I don't know how to explain it or exactly what is different about me, but I do like it. I think even strangers are noticing the difference because I have had several men beep, wave or talk to me!!! I LIKE THAT!!! =) I am very excited to see what I will look like even after I lose another 20 or so....=) I think this next year will be a good year for me and who I want to become. And for those of you who want to come....I am going to celebrate my 30th birthday by getting on an upside down roller coaster!!! With changing comes doing things you have been scared shitless to do and so I plan on facing that fear, probably in augustish!! So come one, come all!!!